Lately all I’ve been doing is thinking, thinking about my lack of motivation. How I’ve become so drained since I moved to Florida, everything seems so far away. Though I have my goal set in stone & I am working towards it, I still feel like everything is dragging on. Also I’m not feeling sorry for myself in anyway, I just feel incapable for some reason, overwhelmed with self doubt. I’ve always struggled with this feeling, but it has never been this strong, ever.
During the time I need to be my absolute strongest, I feel as though I’m at my weakest, a breaking point if you’d even call it that. Overall, my inner self knows I’m capable of doing marvelous things, but when I begin doing them, I have dreaded sense of “NO, DON’T, YOU’RE GOING TO FAIL.” But really & truly, what would it hurt if I failed? At least I tried, plus I see what others call “failure” a success. You succeeded because you tried, & you tried because you wanted to succeed. & In the end you just need to learn the errors of your ways & try again & make it to your full potential.
Through out life everything is trial and error, so I really do not understand why I’m currently finding this, everything I’ve expressed above so difficult to fathom. I really don’t. Anybody could tell me “You’re going to be alright, just work hard, you’re SOOOO close.” but I sit there nervously, pondering "Can I really?" instead of DOING. I really need to overcome this overbearing issue with my fear of failing, the more I acknowledge & question it, the more stagnant my mind will become & the more time I’ll waste. I need to push past my fear & live.
- Acknowledge & Improve- Everything is a learning process, I will no longer allow this issue of mine continue to consume my thoughts. I will rise above this. I’m going to write down my fears, Step #1, acknowledgement. Revise my fears & replace them with what WILL be once I cease focusing my time & effort into something negative.
- Practice- I am going to practice this each day, when I notice my energy levels decrease I’ll motivate myself & begin focusing my mind on creating my reality. Studying, cleaning my space, going over my daily affirmations, & practicing new art forms.
When you want something/someone so much you’ll stop at nothing until you can finally grasp it within your hands. Though obstacles will appear when they’re very unwanted, never give up. Remember, this is a phase, a test of your will power. The only person in your way is you. Stop stopping yourself & start believing & achieving.
What are you fighting for? & how are you turning your dreams into a reality?