SoulOdyssey

Before we know it 40 years will have gone by, questioning our selves over “What have I done with my life? Could I’ve done more?” Our thought process creates feelings of regrets, slowly we deteriorate & forget our “Never Forgets”. Our time is short, the lesson isn’t always completed, but lets not worry about that, at least today has been defeated. -Rosalee Grant

Thursday 10/25/2012 

Completed @12:59 while waiting for my tea to brew. 

My biggest fear is losing my Mother, some days the thought pops up in my mind, when it arises I can’t help but cry. Same with my boyfriend & everyone else who is important to me. I know one day it’ll obviously happen…still, the thought of how I’d function without them is beyond me. Far beyond me. 

An experimental self-portrait without lips & eyebrows, took about 1-1.5 hours to draw the outline. (Orange image) Edited with layers from 2 photos I took while I was in Jamaica.
(White image) Edited with layers from photographs taken in California. Had a feeling I’d be able to merge my two favorite things together. 

child-born-of-the-stars-and-moon:

… That these shifts have brought me a few lows but also brought me so many highs as I adjusted to each one. I am leaving the old me little by little and becoming the new me. I have been soaring like the snowy owl, ever vigilant and watching, listening. Gaining more truth and knowledge as I soar…

(Source: raspberry-wild)

Lately all I’ve been doing is thinking, thinking about my lack of motivation. How I’ve become so drained since I moved to Florida, everything seems so far away. Though I have my goal set in stone & I am working towards it, I still feel like everything is dragging on. Also I’m not feeling sorry for myself in anyway, I just feel incapable for some reason, overwhelmed with self doubt. I’ve always struggled with this feeling, but it has never been this strong, ever.

During the time I need to be my absolute strongest, I feel as though I’m at my weakest, a breaking point if you’d even call it that. Overall, my inner self knows I’m capable of doing marvelous things, but when I begin doing them, I have dreaded sense of “NO, DON’T, YOU’RE GOING TO FAIL.” But really & truly, what would it hurt if I failed? At least I tried, plus I see what others call “failure” a success. You succeeded because you tried, & you tried because you wanted to succeed. & In the end you just need to learn the errors of your ways & try again & make it to your full potential.

Through out life everything is trial and error, so I really do not understand why I’m currently finding this, everything I’ve expressed above so difficult to fathom. I really don’t. Anybody could tell me “You’re going to be alright, just work hard, you’re SOOOO close.” but I sit there nervously, pondering “Can I really?” instead of DOING. I really need to overcome this overbearing issue with my fear of failing, the more I acknowledge & question it, the more stagnant my mind will become & the more time I’ll waste. I need to push past my fear & live.

• Acknowledge & Improve- Everything is a learning process, I will no longer allow this issue of mine continue to consume my thoughts. I will rise above this. I’m going to write down my fears, Step #1, acknowledgement. Revise my fears & replace them with what WILL be once I cease focusing my time & effort into something negative.
• Practice- I am going to practice this each day, when I notice my energy levels decrease I’ll motivate myself & begin focusing my mind on creating my reality. Studying, cleaning my space, going over my daily affirmations, & practicing new art forms.

When you want something/someone so much you’ll stop at nothing until you can finally grasp it within your hands. Though obstacles will appear when they’re very unwanted, never give up. Remember, this is a phase, a test of your will power. The only person in your way is you. Stop stopping yourself & start believing & achieving.

What are you fighting for? & how are you turning your dreams into a reality?

(via just-followyourdreams)

(Source: pikaeisbored)

I don’t know what to think of you right now.

zodiacchic:

GIANT GIVEAWAY! ZODIACCHIC’S 250K FOLLOWER GIVEAWAY! please read all.

I’m so excited to share with you our 250k follower giveaway! I think this is an amazing giveaway, I want all of this stuff for myself! I was lucky enough to collaborate with some amazing people from Etsy and here on Tumblr and I really hope you enjoy all this! You should go thank all of these people who are involved in this giveaway for donating this stuff just for all of you! I highly recommend you read below, to know exactly what you’re getting! The numbers placed on the photo match up with the descriptions below:

1. A free reading from a clairvoyant psychic and medium TheMysticalRose. She offers many different types of tarot readings and all those hundreds of questions that you ask me you should ask her!
2. A beautiful 8.5 x 11 personalized constellation print that will be made to correspond with the winners zodiac sign from evajuliet.
3. A gorgeous custom zodiac necklace that will feature the winners zodiac sign constellation from Juju Treasures. This necklace consists of antique brass metal cameo, bronze tone chain and a clear glass dome.
4. A wonderful custom zodiac “bender element bracelet” aluminum cuff from darkerblue that will correspond with the winners element. 
5. A beautiful zodiac candle from CrashinglyCute that will correspond with the winners sign. These candles come with cute charms and are made fresh with natural essential oils and cotton wicks.
6. An absolutely beautiful dreamcatcher that’s made to order to correspond with the winners sign from Destarte & WeavingCrystal.
7. One dozen french macarons in assorted flavors from LeBonbonLA. These yummy macarons are custom made in the French tradition.
8. A yummy smelling, 8oz soy candle from KrazyLadyCandles. The winner gets to choose the scent of their candle and this candle is made using 100% soy wax and lead free wicks.
9. Pick and choose anything for $25USD or less from Neesie Designs. She creates gorgeous accessories such as headbands, crowns, and barrettes. (Check out my favorite!)
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12. Three solo promos right here on Zodiacchic. 
13. A $25 gift card to Pacsun from good friend and Tumblr blogger Neurolove. He posts studying tips and things about psych and is a very good friend! The gift card will be shipped and can be used online or in store. 
14. Mystery gift. This will not be given out under any circumstances. Not even when the winner is chosen! The only time when the mystery gift will be revealed is when the winner receives their gifts.

Please go check out these shops. I carefully chose these shops and I’m so honored that they wanted to take part in this and to do this for me and for you guys!

RULES:

1. You must be following Zodiacchic on Tumblr to be eligible for this giveaway.
2. You can reblog up to 5 times. I will check and if I find you have reblogged this more than five times, automatic disqualification.
3. Likes will not count as an entry.
4. This is a worldwide giveaway!
5. No creating any new blogs to get more entries.
6. IF YOU WIN: You will get a message from user ask-zodiacchic. If you do not reply within 48 hours, a new winner will be picked. You need to be comfortable with telling me your full name, address, zodiac sign, and email address. You will be receiving parts of your prize from different locations. Some of the items will come from me but others will come from the shop who has the item itself (such as the macarons, for maximum freshness). 

This giveaway will end September 15th, 2012 and a winner will be picked using a random number generator.

Good luck! If you have any questions on this giveaway please ask here if anonymous. Ask here for a private response.

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